By Mrs. Xennial
Holy flipping shit the world is upside down since the last time I post. I travelled for work to Myanmar, and I returned to home base… and SHIT JUST HIT THE INDUSTRIAL-SIZED FAN. It all started in China, and then it’s now a pandemic. It’s a scary, scary time.
So like anyone who overthinks, I got that positive and negative side nagging back and forth…
THE POSITIVES…
- I’m grateful I still have a job. No pay cut, and no decreased hours.
- I know for sure that many people are affected by the closure and shelter-in-place orders; so I’m really glad that I’m able to hold my job at least for now, or until my contract is up.
- I’m grateful that my employer is clever enough to be proactive and following the state guideline and working with all employees to get through this pandemic.
- Even though I was the “second batch” to WFH, still, we were still pretty ahead (since WA is a hot spot and continues to be).
- I’m grateful that my family and friends are all (mostly) healthy (some of them, including me, have a pre-existing condition that isn’t COVID-19).
- Also, I find myself reaching out to friends and family much more now. It isn’t to say that I work less, but I am more intentional in reaching out.
- I’m grateful that I would be able to cover the living costs even when Mr. Xennial’s hours and tips are cut.
- Most importantly, that I have EMERGENCY FUNDS set up and we got an offer on our house in Hawaii before this whole virus thing go nuts.
AND THE NEGATIVES…
- So I have a job, and my contract is up by August. Who’s to say that I will be able to keep the job? I’m not saying that I’m terrible at it; I’m the type that works hard. But a huge part of my job is to recruit… and traveling is no go atm. Even though there are digital marketing platforms nowadays, it still fears me that there may be a “budget cut” that results in positions being dissolved. I’m hoping that state-funded colleges are the way I know they are: it is fucking difficult to get rid of someone (for the most part; unless you touch other people inappropriately for fun on a daily basis); but WHO KNOWS?
- My ambivert ass actually loves WFH; well, my introvert side is. It’s mostly okay, but I’m still figuring out how to balance work and non-work hours, and how not to get stressed out with Mr. Xennial in the same (and tiny) space that I now also call HOME OFFICE.
- My ambivert ass, the extrovert side is slowly dying. And this is part of why I started to reach out more I believe. I just need a non-spouse person to talk to. And that honestly surprised me since I’ve always thought that my introvert side was more dominant.
- DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HOW THIS IS MAKING ME PANICKING THE F OUT. Not being able to save more (even when I know it’s just for the time being), and being the main breadwinner is stressful AF. Honestly, right now the one thing that adds on is that Mr. Xennial is not on the same financial page as me. (He also recently claimed that he’s more Gen X, too. Mother F…)
- This is about the only thing I can’t panic about. Even though I hope that we have more Emergency Fund ready, and that the house should hopefully close on schedule… which seems to be the case.
Xennials on FI/RE 
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